I'm Fine

I’m fine

I don’t lay awake for hours worrying that no one likes me

That I’ll die alone and be eaten by my cat

My dreams never disturb me so much that I rock myself asleep

I’m totally fine

Stress eating is definitely not my go to

I don’t down a whole sleeve of Oreos because I’m stressed out

Never have I finished the chip bag rather than think of a solution to my problems

I’m always fine

Loneliness, doubt and anger never well up inside me

I’m never bitter when other people are happy

I don’t rewatch the same shows because I know they are friends that will never leave

Yes, really, I’m fine

Dark thoughts and memories are not a thing

Visions of a terrible future never cross my mind

I would never use indifference as a defense mechanism

I know, but I am truly fine

The bags under my eyes are a fashion statement

The baggy clothes don’t hide my imperfections

The bruises on my knuckles are never from punching a wall

For the last time, I’m fine

If you haven’t guessed by now, I’m not fine, I’ll never truly be fine

But understand you will never hear anything more than these words

So as far as you know, I’m fine