I Don't Want to Talk About It

Are you ok

I need you to pickup

Can you please let me know you’re ok

What happened

No, I am not ok

I don’t want to talk

Even a text seems like too much of an effort

If I knew it would be less confusing

Have you considered getting help

Did you miss your meds

What did they say to you

Is there anything I can do to help

I am constantly getting help but it doesn’t stick

No, I never miss my meds

Nothing of significance

Go away and stop with the questions

They want to help

They want to make it better

They want to understand

They want to prevent it from happening again

But you can’t really help, no one can

Nothing makes it better, at least not forever

There is nothing to understand, trust me I’ve tried

It will always happen again, it is something I can’t escape

As much as you annoy me

I still need the attention

Without it the voices telling me I don’t matter win

So when I don’t answer or respond

Know that I appreciate your concern

But I still don’t want to talk about it